Leaving Germany: A Bittersweet Goodbye and Returning to the Yukon

Leaving Germany: A Bittersweet Goodbye and Returning to the Yukon

In just a few days, I’ll be back in the Yukon. And my heart feels like it’s straddling two worlds.

This trip to Germany has been many things: emotional, grounding, nostalgic, healing. It gave me space — space to be with my family, to reconnect with friends I hadn’t seen in years, and to simply be outside the usual rhythms of my life.

I’ve had long conversations, spontaneous laughter, quiet mornings, and sweet chaos with my son and his family. I’ve revisited places from my past and found comfort in them. And maybe most importantly, I’ve had the chance to see myself again — not through the lens of work or survival, but through love, reflection, and rest.

And now, I’m getting ready to go back.

For the first time in a long time, I feel truly excited to return home — to my cabin, my dog Ikrusa, my partner, my studio, my Yukon friends, and the daily rituals that bring me peace. I miss the scent of the forest, the quiet strength of my space, and the way the northern light filters through my window.

But alongside that excitement, there’s a softness. A sadness. I’m leaving people I love. My family, who held me in ways I didn’t even know I needed. Friends who reminded me of who I am at my core.

It’s hard to say goodbye when something has felt so good. So safe. So light.

And while I know there are things waiting for me at home that will challenge me — energy I don’t want to absorb, dynamics I’d rather not face — I feel more rooted now. More steady in myself.

This trip was exactly what I needed.
And now, with a full heart and a little ache, I’m ready to step into the next season of my life.

See you soon, Yukon.
And thank you, Germany — for everything.

With love,
Sophie